You may describe what I'm feeling as childish, weird, crazy or obsessive.. but I think I might be (just a tad) hopelessly in love with you. I care for you too much. I can't think straight. Everything seems to confuse me. And don't even get me started on how much I miss you whenever I'm not beside you.. -_- feels like hell.. or torture. Or death. Either one. Aha.
No matter how I'm feeling during the day, I know my feelings for you will never sway.. (poet in the making). Since the start of this holiday, I discovered things about myself that I never knew existed. Like where did all of this emotion come from? I know for sure that I had never felt like this before. I must really care a lot. Maybe I'm too weak. Maybe I'm stressed. Or maybe I over-think too often. And why am I so lazy!? Tumblr, Facebook, Twitter, catching up on shows, Deviantart, Buzznet, Youtube, online shopping.. this is what distracts me. ==' My dad is complaining about how I'm always in front of the computer. Pffft, like I care. :O During dinner, my dad was saying how being in front of the computer has made my eyes look even the more tired. I replied with a "I don't care". He went ballistic. Lecturing me on how much he and my mum cares for me while I don't even care for myself, and to never say "I don't care" again. I guess I really should start caring for myself. Make myself emotionally stronger and stable.
Ahh, placement next week. Should be good. :) I think I need more human contact and to get out of the house more. So lonely without human contact. Feeling like a lovesick robot. I need to see other people's emotions and listen to their problems in order to keep myself busy and distracted. I hate feeling useless. Plus there's no food at home and it's boring. Last night, I dreamt of me sitting in the passenger seat of a car while Jun was driving. I was eating frog lollies. :O Could go for some right now. I can't wait till I get my Ps! I wonder if I my parents would let me drive around to places and to friends' houses. :D I'm thinking there's a 99.95% that they'll let me. Hahaha.
Stay strong.
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