It's the little things that I love and appreciate. Old, happy couples. Beautiful flowers whiling out walking. The sunshine. Finishing assignments before the day it's due. An-almost empty car park. People who can hold a conversation. Fixing something. Funny, random comments. Non-awkward silences. I love sleeping when I'm tired (especially beside my boyfriend). Sometimes it's nice coming home after a long, tiring day and being able to spend a few minutes/hours with him. Knowing that everything in the world will be okay. That nothing could hurt me. I love laughing with him. I love talking to him. I love when he gives me the most ridiculous advice ever, thinking that it'll help the situation, but instead instantly makes me feel better and forget about it.
I'm not in the best place with my parents at the moment. Probably because we have so many differences, or maybe they have such a huge expectation on me. I can tell that they're afraid of me changing. Of me drifting away from them. I can't talk to them like I use to. I have to consciously think of what to say before I say it to them, which makes conversations short and uninteresting.. mostly about women, study, family. I'm a bit worried of what they'll be like if I get married. I always imagined my family to be excited and happy for me on my wedding day. Jumping with joy, giving the sweetest speech and hugging me. I want to have their support and encouragement. Their protectiveness (the good kind!) and their love. Sigh, I guess I have to be patient with them. They'll come around, right? For now I just have to live with what I have. I can't say that it's enough but what can I do when I'm their inferior. It seems like when one part of my life goes right, the other goes out of control.
Thank goodness for distractions. Mostly been studying and playing WoW at home. I can't believe it's been almost a year for me and Peter. :D weeee~♥ although it feels longer than that. He has such a big impact on me and my life. And we went through soooooooooooooooo many things together haha :) almost gave me a heart attack with his emotions and all. LOL I know, other way around. ;) there has been so much change (good change) since that first day (not counting the day I first liked you). What hasn't changed is my love for you. I still don't like going a day without talking to you, and saying "goodbye". Blessed to have someone like you by my side. You make me believe in true love. :)
120911; to infinity and beyond.
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