Had such a long night. I tried my best to ask a lot of questions tonight, but I wasn't really feeling it. I felt sick with a tinge of unknown sadness. I felt unworthy and not good enough. I think I might be having separation anxiety again. To top it off, I'm feeling so lonely nowadays. I don't know if it's from the hormonal change or something else. I haven't spoken or seen my family in a while. And I can't be with Peter as much, and as long, as I want.. it's making me teary. :'0 I really wish I could come home to him everyday. Life would be so much better and easier. I would be infinitely more happier than I am right now. You know that feeling when you know you want to have your alone time or be with someone? These days, all I want is to be with someone. But I get the opposite. When I do have someone, it's like I'm not there. Or only half there.
Maybe I'm too selfish and possessive. Maybe I'm afraid of asking too much. Maybe I'm craving unnecessary attention. I should be happy with what I can get. I do appreciate it. It gets hard sometimes.
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