2013.

No zombie apocalypse. :( booooo! Welp, I recently re-activated my facebook account... I know, "who cares", BUT half a year without it! That's an achievement in itself! I'm just going to use it to communicate with friends and check for updates in my course group. I've noticed that some people already un-friended me =.= I've un-friended around 277 people :D those past few months made me realise how unimportant those people were. Why would I want to have them in my life? These varied from high school people who I barely even know, people I never even spoken to, nosy people, people who I don't want reading my life, and people who I should've let go a long, long time ago. I want to move forward, not stalk the past. I've been focusing on myself for the past few months. Helping myself get better... but here I am, I can't sleep early anymore. :( this really sucks. Feels like I don't have the energy for anything.

2013. A year to fully focus more on myself and find my own happiness. Everyone keeps telling me to do more of the things that I find joy in. I will, I will. Patience is a virtue! THAT I must also remind myself. :) I need to better myself, but I have to tell myself that it takes time. Go at a pace that's most comfortable to you. Those who love you will support you.

"Learn from the past and share your experience with others, cherish the present and look forward to the future. You don't owe anybody the present other than yourself. Take time for YOU. Respect yourself AND your privacy. Set boundaries. Sometimes it's okay to be selfish. Being selfless all the time can be equally as detrimental to your mind and body. Love yourself, because you are worthy of love ♥." - Demetria Lovato

Love. What a lovely word, feeling, action that is. Days when I'm too tired or too hungry is when I feel most at lost and upset. Peter has been so patient and kind with me, sometimes I don't know how to deal with it. WITH EVERYTHING. I am proud to call him my "better half". He's there to catch me when I fall.. and what do I do? I push him away. I'm stubborn (something I have to get over) and I'm lost in my emotions too easily. It's both equally easy to love and to hate. Love is what I choose to give and receive. I hope to give Peter the amount of love he has shown and given to me, and more. Much more.

Resolutions:

~ look after myself better.

~ find things that make me happy.

~ learn to not let my emotions control me.

~ don't avoid/run away from problems; fix them.

~ focus on the present - not the past, nor the future.