Just having a moment of despair and doubt. Nice way to end the night.. (y) *sarcasm*. 
I don't like people to change but what if that particular thing is affecting me? Shouldn't you want to change for the person you love? That's one thing I hate. I hate feeling like I'm being too selfish. Part of me is saying that I don't have the right to change someone, another part is saying.. "don't I deserve this? Don't I deserve someone who respects my feelings?". I need some reassurance here. Everyone who knows me knows how much I hate people who flirt. I don't want to be scared all the time thinking you will go back to your old ways. Would someone really give up their old reputation for someone they love? For example, if a guy was use to checking out girls his whole life, would he really stop when he meets 'the one'? It feels like I'm back to square one. I don't know how to reach out to you. I don't know how to confront my problems.

I'm uncertain. Is it the hormones talking? Maybe. I wish I could handle things better. I wish I could be stronger. I wish it was only you and me. I wish history could re-write itself. I wish I could become invisible. I wish I could change things but I can't. This blog is a mess. And so am I.