I hate how petty I feel. I wish I was more happier with myself. I wish I more confident. I wish I lived in the present. I wish I could stop creating scenarios in my head. I wish I could stop waiting around for you.
I need more PASSION in my life. Being caught up with uni work and placement doesn't help. I guess I care too much when I shouldn't even give a fuck about it. There are too many things I would love to change, if I could. Things that annoy me. Things that anger me. Things that make me cry. Who the fuck am I turning in to? Is this my true self? This part of me which I managed to suppress for 18 years has been awakened and out for a vengeance, haha. 2 years of suffering. I can't control my thoughts once it starts to bother me. What is wrong with me? I thought helping others will stop making me feel so down. I don't know what to think anymore. Everything seems dead wrong. I've been making you up in my head all along.
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