Where have I been all this time? It has been more than a month since my last post! Well I still had 1-2 classes per week, applied for graduate program for next year, assignments, extra shifts, 2 births of women I was following, antenatal appointments, Adelaide show and other stuff... After struggling with the demands of course requirements plus uni, I made it through to see the end of the last class. Oh boy. I think I did well considering the amount of bad luck I had. Currently on a month break before starting placement again. I have three weeks to finish my 3 assignments and study for exam :S can't be bothered these days.
Currently feeling a little empty and numb.. and so, so, so insecure and lacking confidence in myself. To say that life is difficult is an understatement. I wish I was a guy. I wish I had the strength to block vivid thoughts from my head. Why does my mind create images that I know would destroy me? Sometimes I think to myself why I'm in the situation I'm in. Will I still feel like this in 5 years time? Will I still be comparing myself to others? I feel like I'm living my life in constant fear.
What I will do is try my best to help others so that they don't fall to where I am.
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