I really can't wait to finish! I want to renovate/clean both my bedroom and Peter's. I'm excited to get back into the virtual gaming world, and watch loads and loads of TV shows. It's going to be the best summer! Except I may have to help parents with farm work............ sigh. I honestly wish I could move out. As much as I understand the importance of family, I know moving out would be better for me. Throughout the years I learnt more about independence and speaking up for what I want. I've learnt that expectations from others drag you down, and sometimes you have to put yourself first. I looked after a patient who told me the love received from family and friends are different; sometimes family can't give you the love and support you get from friends. And it's true. Even though I spent most of my life growing up with my family, they only see what they want to see. They raised me up to be their own perfect daughter. In high school, they had spies to watch my every move. They even had a notebook where I was made to write a signed statement about not getting into a relationship until I finished school. This was in year 8. When school finished and I got with Peter, all hell broke loose and apparently "school" also meant Uni. I was close to running away; they tried to prevent that by threatening to send a family member to Peter's house.. when they realised that breaking up my relationship was impossible, they were a tad more lenient. They had too much pride to lose on the line. So it's been two years of a rocky relationship with my family. We still have some okay moments. I'm just doing my best to not make them explode at me by doing house duties and taking my brother to places. But that's not working because "I'm not good enough with doing house duties" and "I'm not at home as much I was use to". I tried reasoning with them but they told me off for speaking my own opinion. Nothing will work, seriously. Plus my aunty has moved to Port Pirie yet she's still asking me for favours.
I don't know who I am when I'm with my family.
 |
| Sun Road, Glacier National Park, Montana |
 |
Tahiti, French Polynesia |
No comments:
Post a Comment