The end is near.

Tomorrow is my last shift at this hospital.. Had a rough day/night today. I can't help but think my whole life is screwed up. I have to tell myself that certain things are out of my control and I should just stop being fake just to impress people.. I must be really tired. Or maybe I'm starting to think realistically. At the moment I feel like I'm drifting away from the closest people in my life. Differences are surfacing and making it hard to accept them. I'm pushing people away again. I don't know how to love.