Why is it so hard to confront someone? Either it be by the way they act or what they said- why can't we just straight out state the problem? Most of the time I don't have the courage to be honest. 

Yesterday, I felt upset and such a coward when Peter told me off for something I've done to him. I knew before it occurred to never do it but at that time I was merely lost in the moment when I playfully slapped him on the cheek.. I don't think it was even a hard one. I apologised when I saw his surprise. Still he went on and told me off, his words felt like a hard slap across my face. To make it even worse, he held me and there was silence. Silence for his words to sink in and dagger my heart. I couldn't bare to look at him. Just like whenever my parents tell me off, I've always wanted to avoid them. You see, my boyfriend doesn't like being hit on the head/face with anything. Even if it's a tissue that I've thrown... yes, that was the first time ever he told me off for hitting his head. Yesterday was our 17 months so we HAD to put it behind us and move on. Still, tears silently ran down my face, thinking there's something wrong with me. Or something wrong with us. We watched Revenge and the Walking Dead while in my mind, I felt angry, hurt, alone, ashamed, embarrassed, stupid, and abandoned. We acted normal but it felt so fake. When I went home, I got worse. Well, not worse but I felt damaged. And he has no clue how I felt that day.

Today, I feel a bit better. Just trying to put my thoughts and efforts into tomorrow (Valentine's Day). So this blog was basically about myself ranting haha and my, oh-so, honest boyfriend being so honest. :P why can't we have arguments/fights over NORMAL things!? Nevertheless, I love him with all my heart (I hate him a bit, but I love him more). He drives me insane like a heroin addict on drugs. Confrontation must be a thing I should learn as well. Without confrontation, how can we fix the problem?