"I wanna be happy, I want to die in love"

Happy October! Only two months left before the year is over. Time flies by so fast :'| I felt like I did nothing except work.. and blow my money on food, gifts, clothes, car insurance/rego, phone bill, petrol and useless stuff. This post will be a long one so bear with me D; September has been.. draining. First Friday of the week, I was already upset because I thought Peter would be too tired to go with me as he had work most days of the week. But he took time out of his day to take me, seeing that I was over-thinking and down. I felt guilty on our way there but then brightened up as we stepped in haha. All we did was walk around and eat Show food. Honestly just wanted to go to eat there. BBQ turkey leg is soooo good *drools*. Also tried the nutella pretzel and coffee-flavoured lamington :) we only planned to stay till 8pm which was enough. It got cold pretty early and I only brought a shitty leather jacket so we looked around the Jubilee Pavillion for something warm. There was literally nothing cheap/good so Peter ended up buying me a $260 coat made of "super fine merino wool" ._. made me feel like an adventurous elf ♥

On the following Sunday, my parents got into a huge fight which almost lead to them getting a divorce. Richie didn't want to get involved but I tried to be there for both my mum and dad. I didn't know what to do and was pretty scared of change. So basically cried for a few days. Dad was the one who told me that everything will be okay. He never gave up on my mum, thank goodness. Things went back to normal after they both decided to forgive and forget. Right now it's still a touchy topic but dad is always trying to make her happy.

Then on the following Friday (which was our 3 year anniversary), I got upset yet again. The day went by fine until I woke up from a nap stressing out about choosing a place to have dinner. I actually planned to have dinner at the start of the week but couldn't make up my mind where to eat (typical). Night didn't go as well because I expected too much. The night after, Peter brought over KFC and I felt better.

The next few weeks went by fine but I didn't get enough sleep as I was constantly checking online for the availability of the gold iPhone 6. Sad, I know. I hated Apple but now I got sucked into the dark side... After 4 nights of nothing, I gave up and got a silver one instead. I don't regret it, I love the silver now haha. Just regret wasting those sleepless nights. With lack of sleep, comes over-stressing. Bad moods = pushing people away.

I know I criticize Peter a lot. We also have countless misunderstandings. Sometimes we don't understand each other, and sometimes we want to win the argument (mostly me). Even though we have these little fights, I know I'm lucky to have Peter. I'm lucky that we're still together working things out. I'm lucky that he checks up on me after a fight. I like how he surprises me with little things to cheer me up. I'm lucky that he doesn't perv on other people, that he doesn't go out a lot, and joins me at family events when I ask. I constantly have this fear that I'm not good enough for him. But he never gives me any reason that he'll leave me for someone else, I make it all up in my head. I'm working on it. Today I went to my first official appointment with a mental health profession. I'm hoping that these sessions will help improve my outlook on myself, and help me handle my emotions/thoughts.

On Sunday, we had a family/friends gathering for my mum's 42nd birthday and anniversary. For dinner we had goat hot-pot :D super happy that Peter liked it. I thought he'd be too grossed out but I guess there's hope after all haha. At the beginning of the week, my dad told me to order a $200 cake without mum knowing. Loved that the cake turned out so well! So funny when dad tried so hard to distract my mum when we brought it down. Seeing the surprise on my mum's face when she walked out haha. The cake was delicious, too! Bottom tier was durian, top tier was chocolate. :) During the week, dad took mum to the jewelers where she could choose whatever she wanted. She got earrings, a white gold bracelet and two rings. I think dad spent over $10,000. Mum doesn't believe in receiving gifts other than diamonds lol.

Thank you, I love you ♥

Didn't get the right turkey leg but still yum. Next year I have to remember it's the small stall next door xD

Nutella pretzel.. get in my belly!

Loving the hood :)

Dinner date :D

Spoilt myself with these babies - room always smells nice

Goodbye, Blackberry, that was 3-4 years old. Hello, new iPhone 6 ;) so in love!

    

Peter Rabbit is such a cutie! Top quality, thanks baby ;)

Quality of new camera is pretty awesome, so happy!

Channeling my inner "blue"

People be singing at the wrong time! Well, I was anyway haha.

Dad saying "one ring for anniversary, one ring for birthday" (people yelling out why he's not putting it on). While he puts it on he says, "last time there were problems because the diamonds were too small" xD